I guess lots of you were quite concerned about me after my last post. I had several emails, phone calls, and comments of encouragement. (Thank you). In re-reading it, I can see why you were thinking I might be pretty sad. I think I conveyed a little more sadness than I was actually feeling. It actuality, my longings are just that: longings, minus the sadness you might expect. While I miss my friends, and long for them at times, I still enjoy the steadfast strength and presence of the Lord. While I long for more time with my husband as just "us", I still have the assurance of our unbreakable covenant and still-true love.
I still long for a mentor, and have discovered from your responses through email etc. that many of you do, too. And so, I guess many of us just need to be proactive to pray about it without ceasing, and to approach people as they are laid on our hearts. That seems a little intimidating, but I recognize that several of the girls I attempt to mentor did just that...they approached me.
And so, I remain thankful for the people who are in my life, and for the tremendous opportunities I have to fulfill Titus 2:3-4. I pray that the Lord will continue to use me in the lives of other girls and women, and trust Him for His words, strength, wisdom and perseverance to do just that.
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Oh Elizabeth you mean you aren't in the fetal position curled up in a corner somewhere sobbing your eyes out! That is just how I pictured you after reading your last post (note the sarcasm). *grin*.
I know what you mean. My "Alaska Experience" was the epidomy of lonely for me. It kind of taught me what it was like to be lonely. It was the feel sorry for myself, broken-heart, cry the "ugly" cry kind of lonely. I've yet to have that kind of lonely since then! Thank the Lord.
I did "get" your post. It is a different kind of lonely..the longing lonely. The "I'm okay but long for something more, deeper" kind of lonely. I think that one can be common. I'm in and out of that kind of lonely often. Especially when I've changed the umpteenth stinky diaper and explained for the millionth time why you are not allowed to stick peas up your nose!
At one time I too sought out a mentor and approached someone about it. But, due to whatever reason it just didn't work out. I too wanted someone who had "been there" or "is there" to provide wisdom, insight, support, humor and a Christ-like understanding to my crazy little life.
Just a thought..maybe we could meet on a regular basis to..spur one another on. Maybe a small little group of us could. Not for the purpose of adding one more "thing" in our life. Perhaps for the purpose of edifying, challenging, speaking truth and asking the hard questions. Maybe we don't have to have someone older maybe we just need more intimate, real, iron sharpening iron kind of thing in our life (WITHOUT kids and hubbies).
Just a thought and maybe not AT ALL what you were looking for...
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